on the corner of main street.

too late to apologise.

2010-02-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

yesterday was super awesome omg i love school functions!
really;
after all the angstiness of this week, it felt like magic.
even waiting for third lang didn’t feel as bad as usual.
hahaha vanessa and kaiyan and vivian and kwanglin and eugenia are so funnyyyyyy. :D
jap CA turned out fine too!
i think, i want to keep on laughing like that,
and give up dwelling in those lies because it aint worth it.

i want to say sorry to sqj for being so weird and angry those past few days! D:
i was preoccupied with a problem, but now, i’m giving it up.
and i still love all of you,
thank you so much for yesterday! (:

重ねた思い出が
痛みに変わるその前に
ほら最後は笑顔で say goodbye…
(thankyou sihui, for the song!)

new year resolutions!

2010-01-14T21:46:00.003+08:00

this is super duper late but I want to make new year resolutions!
heheh.
1. to have no regrets in mugging this year.
2. to laugh more(:
3. to maintain neat handwriting and notes!
4. to wave at all the right times LOL!
5. to be less worrisome and pessimistic, and more thankful and joyful instead.
6. not to get pissed at anyone for more than a day.
to me, I think #5 is the most important. because lots of people have been saying I think too much and actually, I myself think I’m really sensitive and often hide it all inside. D<

but I’ll try!

(I dont intend to break my new year resolutions. :D)

of school and teachers and stress.

2010-01-08T21:56:00.001+08:00

i feel all stressed and upset that i have to go back to school tomorrow for boring stuff manszx. D:
(math olympiad training.)
i want to slack at home!
sigh it’s like just the first week of school and i’m so jaded out alreadyyy. T.T
okay school has been so far, uh pretty fine.
i like my chem and chinese and math and geog teachers!
(mr lau is super super super cool really! i think he’s the epitome of the look-strict-on-the-outside-but-is-actually- nice-in-a-cool-way male teacher!
and i was really glad i got a good and nice chinese teacher hoho my interest in chinese is somehow ‘revived’!)
but uh my eng/lit and history teachers are quite boring.
it’s like my favourite subjects versus my poor ones. ._.
i think it’s really great that i have awesome teachers for subjects i like but my poor subjects will just continue cascading downdowndown sigh.
we had jap today! the teacher was really boring and soft but me and liyin kept talking about funny things until liyin fell into her sleepy trance. ._.
i’m having jap at kwanglin’s (i think) class next week! :D
heheh i loved home econs yesterday!
(we get to eat a lot of yummy food i got so full heh.)
okay uh i think i should go do more constructive stuff now.
stop slacking yeeting! D:

CCAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH! ♥

2009-12-29T16:39:00.002+08:00

LOOK AT MY MINICOLLECTION OF STICKERS. ♥
UGs ftw!
i did the two gb ones. PRETTY RIGHTTTTTTTTTT :D

i love CCAO! :D
heheh. vanessa and i were supposed to go running in the morning! and eugenia joined us. (:
but uh we ended up strolling instead, and checking out ant trails.
yeah they’re really formidable, their trail was like, at least two metres, leading from the canadian pizza box eww to their nest on the other side of the track. :D
and we tried doing drilllllllll.
we couldn’t decide if berhenti was on the left or right foot epic FAIL.
(someone please enlighten us!)
sigh i’m really really really scared of drill test next year. D:
okay then we went back to class to make stickers.

(omg you know what kaying broke into our class and opened the lock! LOL omg i can totally imagine her kungfu master moves. xD)
i’m very proud of my fantabulous stickers really! 8D
then we went for LYFE shift.
yeomin and i went walking around giving sec1s (it feels kinda weird to refer to others as sec1s now D: ) LYFE stickers!
a lot of them tucked in their PE shirts and buttoned to the top LOL so cute! okay we had our times too LOL okay i wont say who.
and we had funny pretty (fake) flowers to hold! XD
i wrote on the paper bags for the second shift then left.
heheh i went to give the gb booth my stickers ♥ and i talked to diane!
then went back to class and found vanessa and her ncc mates changing into their really green pants.
and i made more gb stickers HOHO. :D
then i followed them to the void deck (where all the UGs were) and ruthanne pulled me to the gb room to make more stickers.
it’s been like ages since i went there and it’s still dustier than ever! xD
i think joelle (tan) was trying to clean it.
and rachel (lim) and diane and her squash friend were choosing trophies/talking about how gb is way cooler than squash LOL.
then i found vanessa (yes again) and we went around giving out gb stickers/ncc flyers!
okay this is our super efficient method:
‘hello would you like a gb sticker? here you go!’ then i would stick the sticker on the sec1’s shirt.
and vanessa would go ‘would you like an ncc flyer too? here!’
(to the poor bewildered but lucky! sec1)
LOL! 8D
we went everywhere, from the void deck to hall to void deck to canteen to hall to void deck.
then i saw ruth and kim in their formal PSL uniforms back at the gb booth! :D
and we started advertising gb to some ex-rgps-gb girl yay. (:
i went to orchard with vanessa and her ncc mates afterwards to buy bubble tea! :D
peach iceblended was sweet ttm really. i should have gotten greenapple. (LOL somehow i always get that.)
then they went off to lunch and i went home!

2009-12-27T14:06:00.003+08:00

sigh i dont really feel like updating nowadays.
imagine how dead this blog would be when school reopens!
i've been listening to paramore a lot nowadays.
their lyrics are just very apt.
junior alumni meeting tomorrow!
pleaseeeee go if you're free!
uh actually, i'm probably going to step down next year;
i cant cope and i want to spend more time studying.
and perhaps i'll join shirim.
it's so hard to make choices when you arent sure what's up ahead for you because your predictions have failed you before.

regrets and choices;

2009-12-20T13:53:00.006+08:00

theres no point in regretting.
it does seem inviting
and i guess it's inevitable,
but ultimately regrets are unreal:
just another web of beautiful lies.

but i do believe in choices:
little ones, or huge ones, who knows what they could do?
they pile on top of each other;
it's crazy how the tiniest of choices could lead to something life-changing.
our lives, our futures, are shaped by these choices arent they?
i guess there are no wholly good and bad characters;
just good and bad choices.

and we could always make different, perhaps better choices, couldnt we?
theres always a first time, always a new choice.
perhaps, instead of regretting,
it would be more practical to make better choices,
to a tomorrow that no one knows(:

{beautiful lies by lisa unger ftw!}

bannerpainting and stitches.

2009-12-18T15:59:00.001+08:00

uh bannerpainting yesterday!
it was slackish and fun and fulfilling and messy all at the same time.
nessa and i were slacking a lot at first,
i.e. buying drinks and (window-)shopping at popular and checking out old people’s CCA records.
which was quite reassuring, given that PC is probably gonna disbandddd. D:
then we started mixing colours and painting when denise arrived.
my culottes got uber colourful:
it really is a tough job positioning yourself skilfully on the banner.
our arms and legs and feet also got dirtied.
so we went to wash up in the toilet.
i remember the suddenness of the slippery floor and a massive blur and then the dreaded impact.
i didn’t realize i got wounded until nessa said there was blood on my chin,
and i don’t even remember looking at it in the mirror.
it was a stingy, throbbing kind of pain.
uh then i had to go for stitches at KK.
after getting gauze from the GO and going to some really ex clinic to get it cleansed.
there was this wonderful cool slush-like thing at KK that numbed that part of my chin.
so the stitches werent painful at all really(:
the nurses were even gossiping about their superior while operating. -.-
it was all very professional and emergency-like though, somewhat like code blue <3.
i really want to work there if i can in future! ;D
so there were six stitches in all, twice of the expected number.
the last time i fell down my knee got scraped and my immune system was down and i contracted H1N1.
oh wells i should really be more careful in future. D:

are we human, or are we denser?

2009-12-16T20:41:00.002+08:00

the painful truth.
it’s weird isn’t it?
the way humans act;
the way we kill, steal, dominate for progress.
notice i used progress, not survival.
like how we can destruct habitats to build so called important commercial buildings;
murdering thousands of lives.
why then, how then, can we do so if it’s for something unnecessary,
something beyond our basic needs?
is it not a crime against Nature?
yet everyone’s acting like it’s fine, like it’s something natural.
perhaps crime needs a redefinition:
it wont ever matter,
to us.
no it wont because we’re so used to it that it’s sickening,
and even more so because theres no way to rebut;
just a pile of excuses.

i dont think i should be sounding so harsh,
but some of it must be true at least.

the sun is shining especially brightly today.

2009-12-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

i feel damn happy today.
realizing that people cared, and i’m not alone.
sinead and i were talking about kiasuness and competitiveness and if it was worth it.
i don’t know.
i didn’t really say it, but i AM one of those who work damn hard.
to make up for my pathetic small brains.
and i dont exactly regret it.
rather, when i look back i chide myself for not working hard enough,
when i possibly could have put in more effort.
why, sometimes im scared of myself.
its like the junior alumni.
and like what ruth said on fb.
at least, somewhere out there someone else felt like that too.
thankyou ruth! <3

and vanessa and the two st. nicks girls and the friendly photocopier lady also.
though Dinosaur and the other staff were mean i laughed so much at the library today that just the thought of it makes me want to laugh somemore now hahahah omg. XD

look out more for the stars that shine yeah yeeting! ;D

i love meet you there by busted! ;D WHY DID THEY DISBAND. D:
; wheres the world that doesn’t care, maybe i could meet you theeeeeere.

rgpsjunioralumni imsorry.

2009-12-12T21:41:00.003+08:00

omg i'm a horrible chairperson really.

such naviety;

such incompetency.

sorry for not putting in more effort when i possibly could and

leaving everything in a huge mess with terrible organisation and

forgetting and losing important stuff and

giving you exco members unsatisfactory experiences.

perhaps this wasnt what you bargained for.

but reality and expectations never ever clash do they?

i feel even worse that you guys probably wont blame me;

at least pain would prove that we're still alive.

i'm sorry really.

saitte wa watashi.-

i'm the worst.

._________.

gb flagday(:

2009-12-09T17:24:00.005+08:00

flagday killed my feet today. ._.
it was more interesting than tiring though(:
chinatown was boring and the people werent very friendly.
except for a caucasian guy with music blasting out of his ipod who donated five bucks.

then when we got to raffles place we realised what we had been missing out on. D:
the people enjoying the breeze at the harbour were the nicest.
like the fillipino woman who didnt really understand english but still donated;
and a kind australian woman who donated a funny hexagonal australian coin. 8D
haha omg i felt like a tourist at clifford pier. XD
we targeted lots of workers slacking/smoking outside their posh office buildings nearby also.
but the other gb groups were colonising that area already.
overall raffles place was very fruitful though! 8D

then we went to plaza sing to have lunch yay.
and started harrassing the people outside the mrt station again.
there were lots of people who rejected;
because they didnt trust us or they were in a rush or idk, they just didnt care.
but! it was heartening that we didnt get as many turn-downs as i expected;
even though singaporeans are usually stingy and kiasu, many of them still bothered to donate, and did it with a smile. ;D
a couple of them even said they were old gb girls!
and a Very Nice Person donated fifty bucks. 8D
reallyyy i'm not colour-blind yunwen!
and there was a super enthu caucasian guy:

'good afternoon, would you like to donate to the girls' brigade?'

(with a mega-watt smile) 'SUREE i would love to donate to the GIRLS' BRIGADE!'

then me and winnie burst out laughing. XD

when we returned, we realised that we had gotten the meeting time wrong and ended up being the last group. ._.

but honestly i dont mind, if it werent for the rain, cos flagday was funny and fun really. :D

2009-12-08T14:13:00.002+08:00

yay new skin! 8D
hoho.
i just got back from my uncle's funeral in malaysia.
sigh it was super unexpected and rushed and tiring.
the funeral was a very traditional chinesey affair;
another slice of my-huge-family-in-the-far-end-of-malaysia heritage.
i liked burning paper money though.
the flames were really very pretty(:
but the air was BADBADBAD.
i think i must have burned a hundred joss sticks by now.
ah tired!

i've been learning latin.
(or at least trying to.)
it's really very cool,
to know what the romans must have thought centuries ago.
but latin grammar and vocab is terribly tough.
theres 1094378920353 times more stuff to memorise than in english or jap or chinese.
and my brain is pathetically small. D:
it makes me happy though.
it's like the feeling of discovering something new by yourself;
it's satisfying and exciting really(:
heheh next time when i become a squallionaire,
i'm going to go for a roman tour like the one in my history pt. 8D
latin ftw!

tag replies!(:
sinead: haha no luh kwanglin is way more brilliant at philo. 8D eh nessa said she should be free most of the days. so just name a date yeah?
kwanglin: yeah i guess what you said about needing people is very true. sad isnt it. HOHO I CHANGED MY SKIN ALREADY. do you like it? (:

i think i should change my cbox colours.
long post. ;D

2009-12-02T14:14:00.002+08:00

i’m posting this in coloured text!
bleh i hope it works.
i think i’ll change my skin though.
in a couple of days or so. (:
and code blue got me thinking about some things yesterday.
aizawa said we live to be needed by others;
we work hard so that people will need us,
like how patients need doctors and clients need lawyers.
for a moment i agreed, then i disagreed.
why do we need people to need us?
to feel useful.
why do we need to feel useful?
idk really.
i thought we live life for the thrills and the challenges.
for those precious moments that move our hearts.
oh wells.
i need to start polishing my boots. D:
flagday omg.

hanabi ftw!

2009-11-29T15:43:00.005+08:00

i couldnt decide which part of this song i liked the most so i'll put the whole thing here;

Hanabi (Fireworks)
By: Mr. Children

どれくらいの値打ちがあるだろう？
僕が今生きてるこの世界
すべてが無意味だって思える
ちょっと疲れてんのかな
What value left is there,
in this world I live in?
I start thinking it’s all meaningless,
or maybe I’m just tired?

手に入れたもん引き換えにして
切り捨てた
いくつもの輝き
いちいち憂いでいれるほど
平和な世の中じゃない
In exchange for something I got,
I gave up a number of precious things.
But it’s not such a peaceful world
that I can lament each and every one.

いったいどんな理想を描いたらいい？
どんな希望を抱き進んだらいい？
答えようもないその問い掛けは
日常に飲まれて
What kind of dreams should I envision?
What kind of hopes should I take with me as I go forward?
These seemingly impossible to answer questions
get buried in my day to day life.

君がいたらなんて言うかな？
「暗い」と茶化して笑うのかな？
そのやわらかな笑顔に触れて
この憂鬱が吹き飛んだらいいのに
If you were here I wonder what you would say?
You’d probably say I was being “gloomy” and have a laugh.
I just wish I could see your gentle smile to blow away my melancholy.

決して捕まえることの出来ない
花火のような光だとしたって
もう一回、もう一回
もう一回、もう一回
僕はこの手を伸ばしたい
Even if it’s a light like fireworks
that can never be caught.
One more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time.
I want to reach out for it.

誰も皆悲しみを抱いてる
だけど素敵な明日を願ってる
臆病風に吹かれて
波風が立った世界を
どれだけ愛することができるだろう
We all carry sorrow with us,
but we hope for a better tomorrow.
I wonder to what extent can we love a world,
that is gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

考えすぎて言葉に詰まる
自分の不器用さが嫌い
でも妙に器用に振る舞う
自分がそれ以上にキライ
I get choked up on the words ’cause I think too much.
I hate how clumsy I am.
Yet oddly enough, I hate more how skilfully I can pretend.

笑っていても泣いて過ごしても
平等に時は流れ
未来が僕らを呼んでいる
その声は今君にも聞こえていますか？
Whether we spend the years laughing or crying,
time passes the same for all.
The future is calling to us.
Are you, now, hearing it too?

「さよなら」って答えを聞くことを
最初から分かっていたとしたって
もう一回、もう一回
もう一回、もう一回
何度でも君に会いたい
Even though we knew from the start,
that we’d eventually have to say goodbye.
One more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time.
And as many times as I can I hope to see you again.

めぐり逢えたことでこんなに
世界が美しく見えるなんて
想像さえもしていない
単純だって笑った
君に心から「ありがとう」を言おう
I never imagined that simply meeting you
could make the world seem so beautiful.
Would you laugh at me for being simple-minded?
I want to say “thank you” to you from the bottom of my heart.

滞らないように
揺れて流れて
透き通っている水のような心であれたら
I wish my heart flowed fast and smooth like water,
so that it would not settle in one place.

会いたくなった時の分まで
寂しくなった時の分だって
もう一回、もう一回
もう一回、もう一回
君を強く焼き付けたい
For all those times when I need to see you.
For those times when I’ll miss you so.
One more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time
I want to burn your memory deep in me.

誰もが問題を抱えている
だけど素敵な明日を願っている
臆病風に吹かれて
波風が立った世界を
どれだけ愛することができるだろう
もう一回、もう一回
もう一回、もう一回...
We all have our problems,
but we hope for a better tomorrow.
I wonder to what extent can we love a world,
that is gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?
One more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time…

omg i want to cry now.
hanabi ftw! ♥

2009-11-26T14:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KWANGLIN! ♥

heheh okay sorry this is one day late.

but enjoy your thirteenth yeah!

and thankyou for being a cute and funny and huggable friend.

love you loads batchmate and sqj mate and one nineja! ^^

2009-11-24T17:02:00.004+08:00

true love is when the person makes you become a better version of yourself.’
i read this somewhere yesterday,
and i think it’s kind of true and it applies to friends and families too.
and because that’s probably the difference between (romeo and juliet) and (romeo and rosaline).
ah why is it shakespeare next yearrrrr!
T.T
i'm scared of lit.

something happened to my msn and it cant work now and i don’t feel like fixing it.
maybe later.
OMG BUT I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT SHIRIMM CHALET HOW.

class party ♥

2009-11-20T21:23:00.004+08:00

class party today was great hehe. :D

though at times we had nothing to do.

but i will miss you guys all so muchhh.

sinead kaying and i met at bishan mrt station first. kaying brought 6 kg worth of drinks! (in her rgs bag.)

sinead: kaying loves the rgs bag because she's always carrying it.

me: yes, and that time she was carrying TWO of them too!

HAHA funny.

and then we started to talk about RGS Nite musical and the characters we would play. sinead said she would be the bimbo one, emma, is it? i want to be weiming hoho. and sinead said my voice was really low and even lower than louise's but i dont think so leh. then we started calling vanessa who texted saying she wasnt going. D:

when we reached kembangan, it was raining really really really heavily. D: marianne and synth-di were the only ones there. even after 2, we were still waiting for people who were late tsk. i spent most of the time talking to vanessa on the phone though.

the journey to ker rui's house was EPIC. the rain was pouring down in TORRENTS. sinead and i were sharing an umbrella at first, but half of me and half of her still got really wet and we were lagging behind the rest. after half the journey, kaying handed me her umbrella and took off the jacket she was wearing (michelle's AV jacket) and used it as her shelter. OMG THANKYOU KAYING REALLY! ♥ then we realised that sinead who was behind us wasnt walking anymore. but in actual fact, she was already at 89A. (kaying and i had walked past it.) luckily she realised or who knows where we would have ended up in this horrid rain. ._.

there was a surprise birthday cake for yantong! hehe so sweet. :D we sang a song for her too, and she got to cut the cake with the candles.

and we played scrabble! towards the end we started making up weird funny malay words haha. it was FUN! :D

we walked cheryl to the MRT station next. the field that we passed by was disturbing really. it had abandoned socks and shoes and sandals and who knows what. ._.

kwanglin sinead and i were almost lost on the way back and we ended up going to the CC. before we realised that we had actually forgot to cross the road hehe.

when we went back we had PILLOW FIGHTS. which were dangerous and violent and scary but really fun. it got so threatening that:

ker rui: the referee declares this game unplayable!

then we played hide-and-seek. it really is fun to be the seeker/follow the seeker around, but kind of scary for the hider.

kaying stuffed herself inside this really small cupboard and i was outside 'guarding' her while lying on the bed waiting for them to come.

but they never came.

thats why hide-and-seek is scary, and thank god i wasnt alone. when we went out we realised that the seekers had not searched the first floor at all. D:

after that was pizza-eating. ;D and a lot of people were somehow chasing yensiang to her place to play with her dogs LOL!

clean-up was all right, there were a lot of left-overs really. i watched sinead playing tap-tap and played with her for a bit. it's really fun okay but my neck hurt after some time and i always lose to sinead by a lot a lot. D: but i like viva la vida and gives you hell (ABBY!) hohoho.

my dad came really late. but it was kind of nice to wait on the porch with kerrui and tamisha and yensiang.

THANKYOU to everyone for organising the party hehe, especially kerrui.

perhaps we could have given more attention to the planning of games/activities.

but really, thankyouu, 109!

tag replies! (:

2009-11-18T18:40:00.006+08:00

Princess Katie: *bringing ;_;

Princess Katie: HELLO! DO YOU LOVE ME? AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE BRING ME TO THE LIBRARY WITH YOU. D:

yay okay go with me and vanessa! uhm i think you have to sign up at some library portal first. http://vms.nlb.gov.sg/MainServlet.

kwanglin: JOIN PIPES PIPESPIPESPIPES PRETTY PLEASE THANKYOU FUNKY CHUNKY IS HERE

kwanglin: hello! wow you have the same skin as yunwen

yes i know this skin is so cool right! ;D i'll consider joining pipes next year la, see how first. {dingdong!} HAHA PROPAGANDAAA!

vanessa: hey yeeting!!!! ;D today's chalet was quite... interesting (: ttyl

come online quickly! heh we're discussing SQJ blog. ;D DO YOU WANT TO GO FOR SHIRIM CHALET!

Hayley(hui lee): LOVE YOU TINGTING<3

Hayley(hui lee): HELLO MY DARLING!~ relinked you liao and nice blog!<3 we must meet up soon kay. cos i miss you.(:

omg hello! i miss you too. haha you know how to do the moving words thing too. ;D

cheryl: HELLO YEETING!! i am 2nd to tag your bloggie besides you! heehee

helloooo cheryl, thanks for tagging! ;D

KF: happy holidays!

KF: hello yeeting! yayy, you hv a blog again! haha nice bs. =) jiayou for school and your cca! and-

yay thankyou! omg the moving words thing is so cool, can teach me? (:

its so hard to do tag replies. i think i wont copy and paste the whole thing next time hehe. (:

a prologue.

2009-11-16T22:32:00.017+08:00

hello blogger and fellow romans, friends and countrymen (omg net carn cheer)!

i feel so proud of myself for finishing editing the code for this skin. (: it was kind of nostalgic, thinking back to my old blog and how i abandoned it. i will try my best not to abandon this blog really!

i like the holidays. because it means sleeping in, setting new high scores for a lot of games, rewatching dramas and volunteering at the library for CIP hours (hoho vanessa our plan for Outstanding CCA Records!) and polishing (boots, and) up on some subjects at my own pace and hanging out with friends and all the other the things i want to do. (: although i miss school, and a lot of things about it, like post-EYA activities. karaoke comp and net carn ftw! :D

and next year, when we return, we'll be Older.

kwanglin: 'middle-agedness looms near. soon I will be all "WHO SAYS SEC 1 MATH IS HARD!" '

sigh i'll miss J-Block.